Call me Meckay, 19 year old lady who lives in the UK. Been here for 5 years and was orginally from the Philippines. A 1st year univeristy student at Brum University and is inlove with my boyfriend Marlon.

Posted on Friday, Mar 14 at 6:22 pm

Filed under hospital, nursing, reflection, sad, student

Just woke up a minute ago, I did a night shift at the hospital . A patient died this morning in our shift, it was pretty sad and it kinda makes you reflect in a way how happy it is to be alive and experience the good (and bad) things in life.

[ post may be a little bit disturbing , sorry]

The patient was quite old, I had to stand by his side for 3 hours long as he kepts on taking his oxygen off as he was irritated with the oxygen mask and tube. I felt that he didn’t want to die as he was fighting for his life. He didn’t even want to close his eyes, so I just held his hand and told him to take some rest as he’s probably to tired. The doctor had to give him something to calm him down as he was moving all the time and they felt sorry for him. He’s not for resuscitation aswell coz they couldn’t get hold of his wife who he lives with.

I was actually the one who found out that he died as I checked on him at ten to 2am (1:50) and I saw that his chest was not moving and he was pretty cold. Kinda scary at first as it was the first time I actually saw a dead person and after that I told the nurses that he’s dead so we had to phone the doctors and their family (no one answered tho). We also had to do the last offices (clean,wash and prepare him) and the porters took him to the Rose cottage after.

Sorry for the post. Just wanted to share the experience that student nurses like me goes through while developing as a health professional.. Anyways as I was just saying everyone should enjoy the good things in life while were alive as we don’t actually know where we’ll end up after death.

Posted on Wednesday, Mar 12 at 9:02 am

Filed under busy, essay, happy, hospital, nursing, tired, university

Hey everyone, sorry for not updating too much, I’ve been quite busy. Aniways, nothing much happened. I’m still the old boring me I’ve only got 2 weeks left of my placement and I can’t wait to finish it. I’ve got so much essays to do before going back to uni and I still have to revise for my upcoming bioscience exams in April. Argh, so much stuff to do so little time

Posted on Sunday, Mar 9 at 8:36 pm

Filed under broken, feelings, happy, hate, hosting, likes, love, marlon, rawrrbaby

Just came back from London awhile ago, truthfully I didn’t have a lot of fun as we were arguing most of the time (dont pitty me, coz I’m used to it ) but we did made up after that. Spent most of our day at Marlon’s house watching movies, eating and cuddling at night. Didn’t take any photos to show to you lot as he’s not that type who is going to say yes to everything I want. I admit he does control our relationship , whenever we argue I always end up saying sorry to him or asking him for his forgiveness. I may look stupid or people may think I’m such a martyr loving someone who doesn’t care about me as much as I do; but who cares I fucking love him . I may end up regretting what I said just now in the future but I don’t know, I just wish I could learn to love my own.

Anyways I’ll stop talking about my not so perfect love life and let all of you lot to know that my website is open for HOSTING. So if you’re interested just message me her

Posted on Friday, Feb 29 at 10:15 pm

Filed under happy, hectic, hospital

The ward was pretty toxic this past few days! :angry:  and I’m so tired :sad:  I wish that I could get some rest but my day off wont be till friday :sad: I enjoy working at the hospital now, eventhough I dreaded it at first. I just need to learn loads of medical diagnosis and drugs so that I don’t look dumb when someone asks me which is what I do everytime I woke up after a late shift. i’m getting there

Me and Marlon are alright now, he apologised to me on monday night and i have forgiven him :wink:  lol, I’ll be hopefully seeing him this coming friday coz I’m planning to go to London to visit him. I haven’t seen him for 3 weeks now and it’s killing me! Thanks for the advice’s btw.